I grabbed my notebook and sat back in my chair. With my favourite pen in hand, I made two lists: Likes and Dislikes. Simple Enough.
Change can be unsettling, and lately there has been a lot of it. Changes at work, changes at home, changes all around. I was feeling unsettled, like I didn't know what was coming next, and I didn't like it. It took a few weeks, maybe longer, before I realized that I needed to break my mood, to figure things out. Time to make a list. What do I like about things right now and what don't I like.
There I sat. Writing, writing, writing. Luckily, my "like" list was much longer than my "dislike" list. My eye ran down the dislike list. I included everything, even the things you can't change and just have to learn to deal with. That's okay.
I stopped midway through the list. Negativity. It hit me -- I've let all the changes drag me down. I'm the one being negative, repeating the bad, vocalizing things that are bugging me. Me. Usually so optimistic, I've been in a slump, not realizing the effect I have been having on myself and those around me.
Of all the things on the list, this is the one thing I can change. Negative no more. It's time to stop and smell the flowers, look on the bright side, see the light at the end of the tunnel, make a silk purse out of a sow's ear.
It's time to be the person I want to be.